*Sigh,its so troublesome...

I really ,really need a break. Literally a break. Get It! A breather with absolutely no noise (voices, sounds I don't want to hear), no disturbances, not even people (I don't know...changes with time and emotion). Yes, I really need one, why can't people just shut up and let me control my life and be quiet and observe? I don't like to be controlled not even nagged at! Crap! My emotions are all over... my words are turning monsterous and illegible. I don't even know what the hella am I saying!? Just leave me alone....

the facts of life....
- 11:23 PM

<做>
做人就应该做
不会做学习做
学会做自己做
做不熟常常做
做不好耐心做
想要做立刻做
应当做赶快做
成败还是要做
穷时正当要做
富时更加要做

the facts of life....
- 10:32 AM

Nostalgic rain, nostalgic moments. The rain is falling...what a perfect moment to think back. Recently, there have been quite a lot of old events coming into my dreams. Beautiful times, beautiful people. Everything is coming back right up at me. I'm slowly looking and turning back into the old self that I've always been. Quick to boil, careless, no patience. All these rebellious traits. I understood the self-fulfilling prophecy. Somehow, an ominous feeling surrounds me. The good and bad time flashbacks. Is this a prophecy? An upcoming event that is going to turn bad or something. I'm scared to think for the worse.

the facts of life....
- 7:59 PM

the facts of life....
- 1:37 AM

I fear...
I fear I fail my dwa...
I fear...
I fear I didn't help myself...
I fear...
I fear the worst...
I fear being kicked out...
I fear...

the facts of life....
- 1:17 PM